Mums n Bubs

Some people think that because I'm into health and fitness, I must have it all worked out. 

I must be confident and 100% happy with how I look, and never get hung up with my insecurities. 

But this actually couldn't be further from the truth! 

Like anyone, I have areas I desperately want to change (hello hips and thighs!) and I'm definitely no fitness model. 

In fact, I have a little confession to make.... 

It was only at Christmas time that I felt game enough to wear some togs on a beach for the first time in years! 

I'm talking pre-Bella days... And she is 4 in April! 

I would avoid going to the beach with girlfriends, I would keep covered up when I was there with my hubby and kids, and I was so self-conscious about showing my body. 

So, what changed?

Why did I overcome my insecurities this festive season?

1. I was tired. 

I was tired of missing out. 

I was tired of giving my body a hard time. 

I was tired of sitting on the sidelines, watching my family have a great time! 

I was tired of yearning to get in the ocean, but feeling too embarrassed to do so. 

I'd reached my "snap point" and I'd had enough. 

2. I felt ready.

Since having Noah, I've worked hard at my training and nutrition and last year, I saw some exciting changes in my body shape. I'm actually leaner now than I was before having him. 

When you're looking after yourself and following through on the promises you make, it feeds your self-esteem and your confidence.

For too many years, I knew what I needed to do to change my body shape, but I would short-circuit any progress by emotional eating, indulging in treats too often, and not being focused enough. 

By deliberately ignoring the facts about what I had to do, I was eroding any shred of respect and confidence I had for myself in that area. So the cycle would continue, because you don't make good choices when you don't like yourself! 

3. Some fake tan definitely helps ;)

I can't tell you how free I felt to finally get in that water on Christmas Day and not overthink it! 

I still have a way to go on my weight loss journey, but I know that I'm doing the best I can with what I have.

And that's a great feeling, one that can overcome silly insecurities that hold you back from living the life you really want.